Oct 31, 2011


"Writing is a form of therapy; sometimes I wonder how all those who do not write, compose, or paint can manage to escape the madness, melancholia, the panic and fear which is inherent in a human situation."

-Graham Greene

Oct 23, 2011


To move on, we have to let go of everything. EVERYTHING.

I'm done with all these insatiable craps.

Oct 16, 2011


Lately I've been feeling empty. Like there's a hole inside of me. I'm happy but at the same time I'm worried. I feel so far away from God. I have a conflict of who I want to be and who I should be. I prioritize the things that I should put behind. I place my heart in the wrong direction. Everything keeps going in reverse. Like I'm falling off a cliff.

I should put a stop to this, or else I will fall further down until I cannot reach up again. People say you'll know when your 'iman' turns upside down. I'm feeling it, not for the first time but this time seems longer than usual. I'm afraid I don't have enough time to enrich my soul. Cause..you know, not one of us know how much longer do we have before becoming a lifeless being.

Remembering death creeps me out, don't you? There's so much we want to do, but the most important is what is our priority?

Oct 12, 2011

Cage of responsibility.

“Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.”

-Mark Twain

But I'm stuck. Totally miserably stuck.

Oct 10, 2011


I want to be numb. As cold as the winter. As hard as the ice.

But in the end, I melt away.

Let me live.

Let me cut my own hair.
If it looks horrible,
let me learn not to touch scissors and that hair grows back.

Let me spend my money.
If the shirts too little and the store doesn't give refunds,
let me learn to save my cash.

Let me flunk my test.
If I fail the class and miss the honor list,
let me learn to study more.

Let me miss the shot.
If my team loses and I'm on the bench,
let me learn to concentrate on the basket.

Let me go out past curfew.
If I get grounded and miss that big party this weekend,
let me learn to follow the rules.

But most important, let me live.
If I learn a lesson,
you've done your part.

Jennifer Danley

I learnt from mistakes. 
But most of the time, I never really did.

Oct 6, 2011

One among many.

Bulimia is an illness in which a person binges on food or has regular episodes of overeating and feels a loss of control. The affected person then uses various methods - such as vomiting or laxative abuse - to prevent weight gain.

It's not that bad actually, or so I think.
Is it self-destructive?

Oct 5, 2011

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice