Jun 29, 2013

Some smiles are poison.

Trust me, it's true. When you get that kind of smile, chills run down your spine and paralyze you for a moment before leaving you with this gigantic enormous angst sitting in your chest for quite a while. It did to me.

I can never understand how you could crush someone's heart by throwing her out of your life like a meaningless piece of paper, and then smile like nothing ever happens. Why not a poker face? Why not just keep walking straight without looking at my face? I have a lot of questions I want to ask her but I can't. How could someone be so soft yet so headstrong? She reminded me of myself.

And yes, when you see that kind of smile, don't be alone. Find people, get distractions, don't be miserable. I've had enough experience of that I don't ever want to repeat.

Jun 27, 2013

And I just gotta put the original song here.
Haha peduli hape.

Jun 26, 2013

I just gotta put this here.
Too beautiful.

Jun 25, 2013


Love for me is when you want whatever may be the best for that person. Both personally and professionally. You want to protect them with whatever way possible. The most precious thing you can get from them is their smile, and that's enough. Aside from the usual definition of love given by books, movies or other people. So far, I really love these three guys. D,Y and F. And all of them have blood type O.

Do type O people tend get attracted to each other?

But seriously. Sometimes I think my heart will burst any second because when I love, I just love too much.

Jun 24, 2013

Last night I was watching a video about someone and there's this scene where he walked down an empty street early in the morning. Then I suddenly had the urge to go and take a walk but unfortunately it's not safe for a person to walk around very late at night alone without any martial art skill. That video was filmed in Japan. Ah, I've always wanted to go there. I think Japan is the most beautiful country there is, next to South Korea. I love the culture, the people and the places. Not sure about the food though.

I miss blabbering about meaningless things. I wanted to write on Twitter but nowadays, somehow I think it's a stupid thing to do. I don't know why I get this sudden feeling of disinterest in any social site. I have a lot of things to say but every time I gather my thoughts and put them into words, I end up deleting them over and over again. I guess writing here is more acceptable since not many will read it anyway.

My writing skill has started to deteriorate too. But whatever. I don't write to impress anyone. So, what the hell.

Jun 23, 2013

I miss them nowadays.
Hence, the videos spamming.

Jun 7, 2013


Can we go back to four years ago? Thinking of you makes me smile while my heart aches. Time goes by, but the torture is still the same. All these years, I never like you lesser. Only more, and even more.

Tuhan, tolong.

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