Is it nearly possible that this feeling will ever go away?
Love is so overrated.
And in my case, underrated.
I keep on saying goodbyes, but seriously don't know how to leave.
It was an indescribable pain, if you ask me. To lose something you never own.
My feelings right now is in the middle between wanting to see you again and not wanting to. And for the sake of everything, I'll go with the latter.
Let's never meet each other again. I just hate how vulnerable you made me feel. Cause that's when I'm in my worst state.
This should be easier. This should be the answer.
Fools can't love. There will be pain everywhere. I've had enough.
As much as i want to hold on, i can't because you didn't want to and you kept chasing me away too. It's tiring, to run in a circle without a known end. It's heartbreaking, to fight alone with no clear reason.
Like Hodges said, we had something beautiful and now it turned to dust.
I hereby, give you up.
I tried hating you for making me go through this, whatever this is, in the first place. I tried hating you for never having the guts to make me stay. I tried hating you for the fact that you never, even once, asked me what i want or how i feel. I tried hating you for making my heart nearly bursted out the moment i knew about you and her. I tried hating you just for the sake of moving on because you asked me to. I tried hating you for turning me into such fragile vulnerable thing which i despise. I tried hating you, your smile, the way you talk and the things you wrote. I tried, i tried, and so i tried. But it never worked out like what i planned. I just hate the fact that i can't hate you, not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.
Maybe this tiny space of mine can be the evidence that i can show to your face, if you ever ask me how much do i like you.