Apr 26, 2016


I will love you in secret.

And in denial.

Apr 12, 2016


I am always alone.

It frustrates me sometimes but there's nothing that i can do about it. Despites my best attempt to be a social butterfly and a good company, people will always leave me alone. It's like this invisible line they afraid to cross, or maybe they don't even bother to visualize it.

I'm sad alone, i'm happy alone, i'm depressed alone.

Dear self, i'm here for you. No matter what, i'm here for you. For people will always do nothing but leave.

Apr 6, 2016


And here i am, thinking how much i don't want to care, yet still thinking and caring too much.

If only you know.

If only.

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Why don't i just fall and hit my head somewhere then lose all of my memories? It works in a drama. It always do.

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Who the hell is running away right now? Just a little bit confused here.

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If i could sum up my life right now, it's a big fat SHIT.

Apr 3, 2016


It's like hearing goodbye all over again.

Go.

Don't you ever come back.

I don't even have the energy to get upset or angry anymore.

Too tired to give a damn.

Apr 2, 2016


It was his smile. It all started with that.

8 years and 3 months ago.

His smile is so big and warm, it's what i remembered best from that day. And the days onwards.

But i cannot recall when was the last time i was able to smile back at him when he was smiling at me. But it was then when it all crumbled down.

How shall we end this? How do i, end this?

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